mixed emotions.

i do have pictures of the apple quest ella and i are currently on. johnny appleseed has provided the inspiration for apple prints and labeling activities...but i am sick to my stomach and posting pictures of happier times seems to be almost inappropriate. my heart goes out to the fallen deputy and cannot imagine the sadness that his or her family is experiencing. as i sitting here typing this post, it just doesn't seem like the right words are coming to mind; however, i'm am not sure there are any right words in this situation. i just pray that this situation is taken care of, if you catch my drift, and that there are not anymore innocent lives lost in the process.