movie star?

 disco queen?

 model on the catwalk?

you decide. i went with movie star and she kept saying, 'momma look i'm a movie star.' no lack of self confidence here.

half baked.

technically not. mr. captain your due date is today, or i guess tomorrow or the next. doctor's and their inconsistent 'wheels of due dates.' however; if you could come out today, your momma would be the happiest girl in the world :)

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we be craftin'
to pass the time until the arrival of captain, ella and i are craftin'. today we made heart crayons. using scissors to cut the wrappers off the crayons is hand cramping, but necessary. ella chatted my ear off the entire time through the wrapper removal process. no joke. she couldn't get enough of organizing and lining up the crayons in perfect order, talking about the crayons and her favorite colors, and complimenting herself as a helper. surprised? she also enjoyed taking pictures 'like momma was doing.' next, i chopped up the crayons, added a little glitter to the bottom of the mold (which i got at target hollar), and let ella fill the molds with the crayons. finally, a little patient waiting, 17 minutes to be exact at 230 degrees and whola, heart crayons.

life lately.

a 49ers loss. baby mama practice. a wiggleworms session. and a date.

+ yes, the 49ers lost. i am a little disappointed because 1) i already had visions of ella and captain in the cutest 49er outfits ever and 2) now the colors of the teams are the same...that totally screws up the jiggler helmets!

+ i heard ella yelling at someone/something this morning as i was cleaning the kitchen and bathroom for the second time in 4 days (hello, nesting!). 'don't talk to me like that!' was her current rant. as i walked into the hall i noticed her door was closed so i obviously went in and saw poor little sally in bed. she must've been a bad girl and needed to take a nap. sounds like someone that rhymes with hella, that was acting just like that yesterday! strange.

+ wiggleworms. as always fun. except captain needs to come out because sitting on a floor with a 3 and a half year old on my lap is seriously uncomfortable. and yes, the picture with my striped sweater bulging in is my very first with BOTH my children. cue the ahhhhhhhh!

+ i am trying to get ella to understand the concept of a 'date' because once captain is out, i want to make time for special 'ella dates.' my current reasoning for a 'date' is that splitting time with another human being is going to difficult for her. make that ridonkulously difficult. and because i rock at being a mom (HA!) i still want her to feel the love.  so to bucks we went for hot chocolate. to our surprise they had PINK donuts! ella's most favorite thing in the whole wide world. they were definitely the highlight and hot chocolate to my shock was not, but i'll keep trying.

disclaimer: the dark mark on her arm in the last picture is not a tat. even though that'd make her the most hard core 3 year old e.v.e.r. it's her stamp from wiggleworms. proof of her participation and total domination.
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it's where the heart is.

so i truly have not taken the amount of pictures of my growing belly as i intended. but honestly gaining weight, whether it is due to growing another human or not, is not my strong suite. makes me cringe a little actually. but i am trying to take it all in stride and since i am 4 days from my due date, i figured it was about time to do a little documentation.
this pregnancy...
+ i had a tremendously long period of nausea. way longer than with ella. in fact if i watch olivia those nauseous vibes come flooding back. (ella used to watch waayyyy too much olivia as i laid close to death on the couch...close to death might be over-doing it)
+ have not had any cravings, except that i love cherry limeades from sonic and raspberry limeades from red robin. carbonation? yes please.
+ i have almost out grown all the cute clothes i bought at the beginning and keep trying to squeeze into the good ol college sweatshirts. a little bit of belly showing at the bottom is fine right? didn't think so. so those are only allowed where no one can see me. and at hobby lobby because i didn't feel like changing.
+ i have experienced the nesting. holy nesting. i've cleaned out and rearranged pretty much everything this house has allowed.
+ i have cried like it is nobody's bidness. the sad abandoned puppy commercials or homeless people get me every time.
+ i have greatly enjoyed taking time off, but feel strangely out of place being a stay-at-home-mom.
+ i have completed tough mudder, signed up for a mud-run post baby, gotten engaged (yes out of order...i know what you're thinking), celebrated my 28th birthday, celebrated ella's 3rd birthday, and loved being preggo during the winter.
+ i have definitely gained more weight and am bigger than i was with ella. i have also dilated to a one on my own....that was meant to be followed by a round of applause and a pat on the back. thank you. thank you.
annnndddddd....
+ i have tried to be a better sport concerning the whole 'i feel like a whale and can't wait to get back to what i used to be doing in my skinny body' pity party.

so welcome to the world captain....whenever you decide to grace us with your presence, i will be here waiting to push you out for the simple fact that i am dying to dress you. :)

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repunzel times two.

trying to get pictures of these two is almost impossible hence the blurrr in every photo. before emma even arrived, ella had decided they were going to play princess. she was going to wear the big dress and emma would wear the little dress. ella also decided that if she wanted something emma had, she would just trade her for something not as good...and since emma is younger, this strategy worked. s-h-a-r-i-n-g is a word that is conveniently absent from ella's vocabulary at choice times. they ate, played ring around the rosy, had another snack, and even got married (for proof, double check last picture). when you kiss, you get married...simple as that. emma came over for a play date and got hitched. a very eventful day.
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baby mama drama.
you know that scene in baby mama when the instructor asks who is going to have natural child birth and who is going to use toxic western medicines to drug their baby for their own selfish comfort? well if not, please let me refresh your memory...

 Woa-Woooo

couldn't agree more. holy cow. i was having contractions the other day, figured i'd be at least a two or something. went to the dr. yesterday and i'm still a one. hopes demolished. minds well have taken my optimistic thoughts and smashed them into a million pieces. plus it was raining. the only thing keeping me sane was the sale baby gap was having. praise the lord for baby gap sales.
the countdown is on. 6 more days.

recently / january.

+ i told ella she needed to pick up the manger scene since it was scattered all about the floor. i walked back in and that is how she had set it back up. maybe she needs a little more explaining when it comes to actually who and what was at present at the birth of jesus christ OR the bible just forgot to add a giant little pony. oxy-moron? definitely.
+ with time off, i now get to be the mother i have wanted to be. well in terms of wiggleworms. it would seriously break my heart when we'd drive by the library and she would ask if she could go. since it is only on mondays and tuesdays, with work it's a no-go...but now i have nothin' but time. well until captain that is. i fully intend to take both once he graces us with his presence...intend being the key word.
+ twinning! not in that sense. but the twins turned one on the 10th...the park for their party turned out to be an awesome idea. it was a miraculously, glorious, cloudless day. warmer than ella's september birthday party i think. ok back to the point, ella loved the park as she always does. loved going down the slide and emerging with static hair. loved saying 'hey everyone look at me!' and doing her signature move. and loved with a capital L eating her chocolate cupcake. i mean, that is why she went to the party anyway...the cupcake.